Lazy Day

Yesterday, I may or may not have watched an entire season of Park and Rec.

I woke up, made the bed, worked out, and ate breakfast. I wasn't feeling the cleaning, organizing, or baking that had filled my days earlier this week, so I binged on this wonderful show.

Around 6 o'clock, I went in to make dinner. Dirty dishes filled the sink, I still hadn't fully cleaned up from the baking a few days prior or my breakfast or lunch from the same day. And yet I was filled with a feeling of reassurance that when he got home, Nathan wouldn't be annoyed or disappointed at all. He wouldn't be irritated or frustrated about the messy house or the extraordinarily lazy day that I had, and that made me feel so much better. He's never like that. I'm constantly amazed at the immense love and consideration he has for me. He's just happy to see me when he gets home, no other expectations.

Before he left for work this morning, he did however close out of the Netflix tab on my computer. I don't remember his exact words when he closed out of the tab, but they were loving and gentle.

Let it be known

I survived my first semester of grad school. It was stressful. There were times when I floundered and felt wholly inadequate, but I'm grateful to be in a supportive and encouraging program. Linda Stone-Ferrier reminded me so graciously that I'm here to learn, and I've really tried to internalize that the past few months. I'm not here because I'm perfect or a full-fledged scholar. I'm here because I'm neither of those things but willing to work hard and become better.

More than anything, I learned that there is so much more to life than grad school. I get so caught up in being a good student and worrying what my professors think of me that I tend to shove everything else aside. But I need to prioritize following the Lord and becoming more Christlike. Daily scripture study and prayer are vital tools in this process. When I'm doing these acts daily and God is my top priority, everything else will fall into place.

One down, three to go until I finish the MA. Still on the fence about the PhD, but I'll take it one day at a time.