I've been thinking about the future a lot lately. Actually, I think about the future frequently. I'm always thinking ahead, trying to plan and see how things will turn out, weigh my options and what steps I can take today that will put me where I want to be in a week, month, or a year from now. Is it overwhelming? Sometimes, but it's a habit of mine.
Sometimes I think God likes to put things and people in my life just to throw me off. Something happens that I wasn't seeking or necessarily wanting. Sometimes what happens in welcome, sometimes it's unwelcome. Either way, I wasn't expecting it, and it just completely throws me off. These instances confuse and bewilder me. I'm never quite certain how to feel about them, especially with regards to my future. I have a difficult time investing myself in things or experiences that I don't think will have a positive or lasting influence on my future. I don't want to waste my time, I don't want to get hurt. So maybe it's a form of security.
I wish I could more easily enjoy the moments, the fleeting passages of time that make up a life of memories and experiences and lessons. I mean, certain things only happen once. Why should I let my fear of the future prevent me from being happy now?
So this is my goal. Enjoy the simple moments that can bring us happiness and occur on a daily basis.
