...and I blog again. I just finished reading Samantha's blog and now I feel like my blog is incredibly shallow. I mean, hers is deep and thought provoking. Mine you read in like five minutes and you feel like you just wasted five minutes of your time. Hmmm. Whatever.
So I'm extremely sore. I started this new swim team and it's a lot harder than the school swim team. I hurt all over. My lats hurt which are muscles I didn't even know could hurt.
Lately I've been having these really weird, arbitrary bursts of thought. For about two seconds, I think I still have my brace (Elle!) and that I'm moving around too freely. I feel like I should be wearing her although my one-year anniversary without her just passed this last month. These... sensations, I guess you would call them, are just happening frequently and it's so weird. I don't know what's wrong with me.
Recently I have realized how alone I am in this world. Then I remember something I once learned and I remember that I have at least one other person I can count on. But He's basically the only one I can really depend on. I had a sort of epiphany the other day, just out of thin air, and it suddenly hit me. You cannot rely on anyone. It's a truth known throughout the universe.
Yesterday was Thanksgiving. It was an ok Thanksgiving. I feel like the day should have had more of a thankful, warm and fuzzy ambiance surrounding it. But it didn't. It was just another day.
Another epiphany I have had recently: time just goes on. Technically speaking, I don't really believe in time. But it's the only way I can measure this world. Time just keeps going. Neither you or me can do anything to stop it, pause it; no one can find the rewind button because there is none. Your futures becomes your present and your present becomes your past all within a matter of a blink of an eye. It all just becomes a memory; a fuzzy picture filed somewhere in the back of your mind. Sometimes you can recall it but sometimes you just lose your memories. I guess that's why the present is so important.
I don't even know. Like my father says, "You just can't think too deeply about things. It makes life a lot more complicated than it should be." (or something along those lines...)
