Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Inevitable is Change


I'm ready for change. I think that's why I really want a new hair cut. I would already have one but Ashley isn't calling my mom back so we can't really set up an appointment with her. It's frustrating-it's like she's fallen off the face of the earth or something. Who knows. But yeah-I want a new haircut. Something radically different than what I have like a new part, new length, new color, new whatever. Maybe not a new color but something different. I don't really know specifically what I want though... I'm just ready for a change-a change in scenery, people, place, etc.

Lately I've been thinking about my future career. I've considered so many from curator to linguistic anthropologist. I think I'd love to go to Africa and be a teacher or a doctor there. For about 2 years of my life I wanted to be an anesthesiologist then that died away. I'm just an easy-to-please type person. A lot of things interest me-especially intellectual things. I'm not a creative artsy person and I really admire people who are creative/artsy. When I go to college, I feel like I want to major in history, German, anthropology, nursing, English, business, economics, etc. Then I have to think, "do I really want to be researching for the rest of my life which is basically what anthropologists do?" I like to read but I definitely don't want to be an author. I would hate being a politician and lawyer. Teaching would be too frustrating for me. I just don't know. I feel like time is creeping up behind me and even though I have some time left in high school, it'll all be over. To me, high school is a serious time and it is the ultimate determining factor in one's future. I mean, it determines what kind of college you get into and to me, college is even more important than high school. High school is just the beginning of a long chain of dominoes: Life is a long chain of dominoes. Maybe I take life too seriously but I guess that's just the way I am.

Question: Is it odd to think that the whole idea of dying is somewhat comforting?

4 comments:

Samantha said...

It's not odd. Wanting to live forever would be odd.

Amy Elizabeth said...

1. I think that a shorter cut with a side part and a teensy bit of side bangs would be a change that's not too dangerous.
2. Well, you've got one more year than me...and I'm pretty sure you have figured out more than I have.
3. No...it's not.

Leah Beth said...

You say you aren't talented in literature. But I think you explained your feelings in your blog splendidly. In my opinion, you have a true passion for literature because you know ALL ABOUT classic peices.
Is it just me, or does it seem like everyone is commenting about your haircut?

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